I think i’ll start with i’m sorry because its what I really want to say You’ve stood right there be side me every night and every day You’ve brought me food and coffee and encouraged me with words you’ve helped to force me out of bed when its sleeping, I preferred.
My Lilee-Jean, If you were here to turn four I would have spent all night decorating after you fell asleep, so that when you woke up there would be balloons all over and a banner just for you, saying Happy 4th Birthday, and you would be four. I would be in the kitchen making chocolate … More If You Were Here To Turn Four…
“Be gentle with yourself” “Take all the time you need” “One step at a time, everything else will come” “Do what you need to do when you need to do it.” “Don’t hide your feelings, yell scream and cry when you need to” I have been given some great advice over the last almost 9 … More Completely Screwed Up, and I Don’t Care Who Knows It.
I read a post by a woman named Claire McCarthy who has lost her son and in 2012 she had written about what Mother’s Day is to those of us grieving the loss of our babes. She said: “Other days of the year you can maybe make it a few hours without thinking about your … More Mother’s Day.
I don’t know what’s worse, having a nightmare and waking up to find that its true, or having a dream of a wished reality and waking up to find that its not. I have nightmares of memories that torment me and dreams of a better time; an alternate future where Lilee still exists. I am … More Seven.